When I divine myself huh?

Gosh! Wasn’t that a fabulous smart line further down in ”Just a phase”: When you had a piece of heaven you want to be god at some point.

Love letter to the future

Dearest Taylor He was not your father and never will be. He was only someone, the first one, who has betrayed me terribly. The pain is immense and only seeing your face in my visions can soothe it a little. …

The price

When the truth is outspoken it sometimes hurts more than knowing it already quietly for long. In my head and heart he has died  long ago now but he ceased to exist today. Not worth any further tear for what …

Kiss of perception

Women have far too much time on their hand when removing nail polish… Beauty requires a certain distance. An inherent fear of destruction. Fear of self. Fear of intensity. Whatever the reason may be… There is a great sense of …

Oh heritage soothe thy pain

All still I sit in the garden of England, on a white wooden bench under sheltering branches of a willow exactly four times older than my grandfather on his deathbed. Rain never left me untouched, neither the diary on my …

Eat or be eaten or be eatable

Women become sirens when they are lonely. Just one of the few understandings of today’s moments. I cannot return…I see how Peter Schilling sings of the Titanic ever lying on the ground of the oceans and….I feel for that ship…I …

Piece of common knowledge

Today… hmmm No let’s start differently… with a line of common knowledge…maybe… ”The lower you sink the higher you can rise again.” I am amazed how much time true love really takes to heal. I thought it may take not …

…just a phase

It is one of those evenings when I am glad I am still alive…reached the periphery of depression earlier…ghosts of the past sometimes chase you all together in less than five hours. I am not scared of darkness or ghosts …

Normalcy does not appeal to me, truly

The only honest reason why I watch the football game with Germany tonight is… to get an insight into why and how normal people function… how they sit in a crowd for hours… just to watch eleven white dots and …