From nomad to no-mad
I came back from China yesterday morning, and although the trip didn’t seem to fit in at all into my life, it was brilliant. And if I had some energy left last night I would have told my mother while showing …
The diary of a psychopath
Reading the diary of a psychopath can be very intriguing. Being in possession of the diary of a psychopath is very pleasing. Next to my name and a few analytical words, it reads Dim light. One of these weary smiles …
What matters
Hello world out thereIt is one of those quiet evenings when you sit down with a cup of tea and contemplate the question: why it cannot have been a woman? Why does my gut feel tell me that it was …
The aesthetics of murder
This morning I am looking at a crime scene that fascinates me more than any other before. The crime of Elizabeth Short has never been solved but….photographs of her mutilated body are all over the internet (probably because the police …
On depression
Do you know what depression is? And I don’t mean the state when you are sad because your sugar level is low.I mean psychological depressions as part of your mental health. It is the moment when you lose all form …
Looking for Anna
I’m sure you could have seen us in the dusty distance, in a blue Pontiac, two figures with more years of experience than I have, in the back.Him and Me in the front.Anyone who would have seen us this way …
Nec spe nec metu
Friday night.Hot white chocolate, periods without blood and flu.I realized that he is a Caravaggio, in modern times and modern words but that is all I think of the one who I have no respect for.My mother sent me a …
The warmer
The weather has turned for a warmer direction once again. Lying by the beach today, reading ”Drawing on the right side of the brain”, occasionally watching the clouds pass.I felt watched by the rusty ship resting too close to the …
Happiness
Whatever people say, I know I deserve happiness. I deserve it not only because the first half of this year was basically hell and I never wanted to suffer… but I deserve it because everyone does! I rather die in …
Watercolours
The mix of grey, blue and white in the sky reminds me of late German summer evenings. My head is heavy from writing CVs and job applications and maybe that is why I am weak enough to let myself drop …