The missing

First Christmas day hmmmI was so glad my granny left…she had like only ten sentences in her head and she repeated them over and over…the broken tape…of dementia…I could not understand why my mum invited her…I surely love her too …

Falling ice

One day before Christmas. The snow on the roof turned to ice and every night I hear it falling down, landing crushing on our garage roof.Whole afternoon I did some baking lessons with my mum…we made like three or four …

Pain is a blessing, not bliss

It’s almost twelve…I just got up.My mother is having her last day at work and luckily my brother and his girl are at her place.Only the cats are in my room…Tapanga just tried to eat my hundred year old book.For …

Light hurts!

Midnight.-12 degrees Celsius.Well, what can I say to the sports musical I just came back from…maybe one rhetorical question: What kinda mood conveys a musical that has ”Christmas spirit” in its title and plays the Ghost Busters song right at …

Cheese bags

I am a little bored right now, the time does not want to drop…This afternoon I realised again that I am probably the only woman on earth who travels with a half full bag. But I anyway will buy some …

Sophisticated siren with a soul

Good Morning Angelzor noon…I do not understand how a Sunday can start so wrong but now it is better…apart of feeling high (from all the paracetamol and the inhalation oil my body consumed) I feel the urge to write something…nothing …

strokes and warm pizza

Why I actually am always ill when I go to the theatre? Looks already like a natural law or something. On the two minutes walk to ‘The Nutcracker’ I realised that in the past months my life became very tidy…neat …

Mortui vivos docent

You know sometimes a short line can blow off your ego…gives you a boost until the end of this term.We had our last seminars today and I had some more talks with the teachers.Right now listening to some music and…had …

Today

It is time Angelz!I will tell my parents about every single feeling I have……..today.I prepared already what I will say yesterday…was trembling and crying badly when I read the words again and again.But I cannot take it anymore…not for Christmas…not …

Oh oh massage…more more more

Wow Angelz I never felt any better than today, this grey day. Just came back from my massage and I feel like sleeping the next day. She was so nice, friendly and you could really feel well with her. The …