The face
Good afternoon AngelzLook what strange face watched me from my window when I woke up this morning:Today was….today is grey and it just started snowing heavily.I walked around town with my mum. Everything looked so dead. The purpose of our …
Category: The [Un]conscious
There is much we don’t say – see for ourselves yet our mind picks up the smallest detail, unconscious referenced in sub-conscience.
Light hurts!
Midnight.-12 degrees Celsius.Well, what can I say to the sports musical I just came back from…maybe one rhetorical question: What kinda mood conveys a musical that has ”Christmas spirit” in its title and plays the Ghost Busters song right at …
I did it…I told them…crying and sobbing.And god knows…it was not easy!I dont know how I am supposed to feel…it is not all gone…maybe have a second talk in the next days or before Christmas. No idea if I anyway …
Today
It is time Angelz!I will tell my parents about every single feeling I have……..today.I prepared already what I will say yesterday…was trembling and crying badly when I read the words again and again.But I cannot take it anymore…not for Christmas…not …
I suddenly felt the strong urge to share a poem with you. Not mine this time. It is ”Dark Pines under water” by the Canadian poet Gwendolyn MacEwen. This land like a mirror turns you inwardAnd you become a forest …
There are these days when you realize you are a capricorn, not a unicorn.Get a coffee and listen some hard rock.Your thoughts don’t end at the horizone.I were indignant at my mother saying that our new cat – with the …
Well, what’s up?The latest madness.On Monday night I dreamed I torture myself and commit suicide with a phone cable.On Tuesday night I dreamed of the dark spirit I saw last time when I was fourteen.And obviously that spirit was also …
My complexes with males – The beginning
It has hurt me most that I could not see him when he died. It has hurt me most that no one ever thought I would have wanted to see him before his death.After ten years I remember my grandfather’s …
Necromancy
Do you know the advantages of being an adult?You can buy and eat as much ice cream as you like.The disadvantage going with it: your conscience telling: you will get fat after eating a kilo of it.More work this week…I …
He is busy lately and my hormones tell me I should be with him more often than five hours per day. With fear I realized it is an obsession…he became an obsession. I would have probably stalked him if my …